darker than words 21 March 2008
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On this day — the darkest of all days, darker even than the Last Day — it’s hard to find words appropriate. And that difficulty is only fitting: for today is the death of the Word.
One temptation should be resisted, though, and not every priest is up to the challenge.
The Cross isn’t God showing us how much He loves us; or showing us that we should renew our efforts to help the poor. It’s not God suffering to teach us how to sympathize by offering an example of an innocent being killed– if anything it’s an identification not with those who suffer but with those who cause it. The Cross is not a lesson that some people learn and others merely admire and some reject.
It’s an action. It’s an event. And it changes everything whether you’re sleeping in class or not.
The Cross has more in common with a hurricane or a supernova than it does the philosophizing of Socrates before his death.
We try to water it down and replace it by Hallmark sentiments. We try to escape by treating it as merely a dramatic example of a teacher who threatened the social order being suppressed.
We fail.
For there He hangs, and for this was He born, and from the effect of His death there is no hiding place.
Kneel, sons of men.
he’s right! give us hell, Quimby! 16 March 2008
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As they approached Jerusalem, at Bethphage and Bethany, near the Mount of Olives, He sent two of His disciples, and said to them, “Go into the village opposite you, and immediately as you enter it, you will find a colt tied there, on which no one yet has ever sat; untie it and bring it here.
“If anyone says to you, ‘Why are you doing this?’ you say, ‘The Lord has need of it’; and immediately he will send it back here.”
They went away and found a colt tied at the door, outside in the street; and they untied it. Some of the bystanders were saying to them, “What are you doing, untying the colt?” They spoke to them just as Jesus had told them, and they gave them permission.
They brought the colt to Jesus and put their coats on it; and He sat on it. And many spread their coats in the road, and others spread leafy branches which they had cut from the fields.
Those who went in front and those who followed were shouting:
“Hosanna!
BLESSED IS HE WHO COMES IN THE NAME OF THE LORD;
Blessed is the coming kingdom of our father David;
Hosanna in the highest!”
Jesus entered Jerusalem and came into the temple; and after looking around at everything, He left for Bethany with the twelve, since it was already late.
The Gospel According to St Mark: XI
mercenaries and apples 30 January 2008
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Last year I started reading the science fiction webcomic Schlock Mercenary. It’s original, tightly scripted, and above all enormous fun. Since I showed up so late to the party, I got to read seven years worth of comics at once, and could see the artist-writer Howard Tayler improve greatly as the series progressed. (The art, anyway. The writing was good from the outset.)
In today’s comic, one of the characters complains about a certain situation he finds himself in, where he doesn’t agree that doing what his wife has arranged is right:
“But now that we’re married, you’ve got me playing Adam to your Eve. I can keep one commandment, ‘don’t eat the fruit’, by not eating it. Or I can keep another commandment, ‘cleave to your wive’, by eating the fruit with you, and staying with you through all of the consequences. Lots of people wonder if Adam made the right decision. I think he did, but I doubt I’m strong enough to do the same.”
Rather than explain the problem, I’ll simply quote one of my favourite novels, Perelandra, in reply. (Readers, including non-Christians — perhaps especially non-Christians — are encouraged to spot the flaws in the above themselves. There’s no reason that nonbelievers shouldn’t be able to understand Christian theology well enough to perform simple analyses under its principles.)
In the following passage, the King here was discussing what he had thought to do: he had been in danger of finding himself in a similar situation.
“And then I saw what had happened in your world, and how your Mother fell and how your Father went with her, doing her no good thereby and bringing the darkness upon all their children. And then it was before me like a thing coming towards my hand, what I should do in like case.”
“Yes,” said the King, musing. “Though a man were to be torn in two halves.. though half of him turned into earth.. the living half must still follow Maleldil. For if it also lay down and became earth what hope would there be for the whole?
But while one half lived, through it He might send life back into the other.”
[...]
“He gave me no assurance. No fixed land. Always one must throw oneself into the wave.”
Always into the wave.
assignment of duties 5 September 2007
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Much has been written, and much is yet to be written, about the ordeal of the Taliban kidnapping of the South Korean missionaries in Afghanistan. Some of the hostages were killed; others, according to recent reports, were repeatedly subjected to sexual assault. It would appear that the release of the hostages was arranged through the payment of a ransom, which will certainly lead to more death (through the direct support it provides to the Taliban) and quite likely to more kidnappings (through the evidence it provides that kidnapping is profitable.)
For my non-Christian friends, there has long been a debate within the Church about whether priests should be married. Contrary to popular belief, there are married Catholic priests; there have always been married Catholic priests; and there will always be married Catholic priests. The restriction of the priesthood to the unmarried is a hallmark only of the Latin rite, which is one of many different “styles” of Catholic practice. It’s the most common in the West, but that’s it: it’s a discipline, not a dogma, and could be changed tomorrow with a stroke of the pen. I don’t know offhand of any Protestant communions who demand their ministers be unmarried, but there may be some somewhere.
St Paul’s writings seem pretty clear that he expected most priests (=presbyters/elders/overseers/bishops, depending on translation) would be married. It’s difficult to read his first letter to Timothy and conclude otherwise:
Here is a trustworthy saying: If anyone sets his heart on being an overseer, he desires a noble task. Now the overseer must be above reproach, the husband of but one wife, temperate, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach, not given to drunkenness, not violent but gentle, not quarrelsome, not a lover of money. He must manage his own family well and see that his children obey him with proper respect. (If anyone does not know how to manage his own family, how can he take care of God’s church?)
1 Timothy 3:1-6
By contrast, St Paul himself was unmarried, jokes about the “thorn in his side” notwithstanding, and he also commented on the advantages of being unmarried elsewhere (in that your attentions wouldn’t be divided). So there has always been a role for the single as well.
It seems to me that one Catholic argument in favour of a celibate priesthood is sound: that a priest with a wife and children has responsibilities which can interfere with his duties as a man of the cloth. (Paul famously mentions this principle in 1 Corinthians 7.) To my mind, though, that doesn’t require that all priests be celibate, or even that most be, only that there exists an order which is. This order of knight-priests could then be sent into the darkest corners of the world where martyrdom is likely, and who would be forbidden by the rules of the order from being ransomed.
Given the unspeakable cruelty of the enemy, although I admire the courage of those who face them, I will not apologize for the fact that I believe missionary work among them in obedience to the Great Commission is a duty for single men without dependents. It is a job for those who — to put it bluntly — can afford to die, and whose death the world could bear to watch without yielding to a foe for whom mercy is merely a weakness.
It’s a job for people.. well, for people like me.
Damn.
distance 10 April 2007
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From a review of the series Rome over at First Things:
Some may quibble with the historical accuracy of this or that detail, but in the main the show has it right. The picture presented by Rome is provocative, troubling, and at times downright strange. Despite how well we know the story of the fall of Rome, and despite our clear debts to the Romans as a constituent part of our own culture, they are not us and we are not them, in large measure because of the interposition of Christianity. Indeed, the most recognizable people in the series are perhaps the Jewish characters, whose ethical structure is clearly recognizable as our own from the brief glimpses we are given of it.
Were we to travel back to the Empire, we would have been impressed by Rome’s grandeur, and Egypt’s legacy, but the despised and weird foreigners with their complicated rules are more our ancestors than those who designed the buildings we imitate and gave us the script we use. There’s more than one way to fulfill a prophecy, counting Abraham’s descendants, after all.
Athens, meet Jerusalem.
I’m definitely feeling philo-Semitic recently. Might be reaction to the locals.
God is dead 7 April 2007
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At first — and even second — consideration, the idea that God is dead doesn’t make much sense.
Assume there is a god as traditionally understood by the Western tradition: unique, all-knowing, all-powerful, all-good, and so on, and thus appropriately capitalized and called God. If there is such a being, who stands above and before everything else, then he must be uncaused. He would also be ontologically necessary: that is, his existence would be the only one which must be. Everything else could have been different, or it might not have existed at all, but God must be who he is.
If such a god existed, then it’s obvious that he can’t die. He can’t end. Neither can he begin. He simply always was, and always will be. To suggest that God would die is to commit a category error of such magnitude that it’s hard to find a good analogy.
Moreover, if God is in fact logically necessary — in the same sense that 2+2=4 and Fermat’s Last Theorem is true are necessary truths: they could not have been otherwise — then again he can’t die. Mathematical truths can’t stop being true, and if they really do subsist in some Platonic realm in the mind of God, then to say that God died means more than saying that 2+2 stopped equalling 4: it’s to say that the statement itself is meaningless. From a contradiction you can derive anything.
The conclusion seems inescapable. Any god who could die is not God as we have believed or disbelieved in, and so “God is dead” could only refer to the social status of belief in him or something along those lines.
About the only loophole you can come up with is to distinguish between person and nature. If the “who” of a person isn’t the same as the “what” he is, then if God could take on a different “what” then he could die. That is, the person of God could die, even if the divine nature itself couldn’t. It’s easy to imagine this in a crude form. I think I’ve even seen it used in fiction, where the heroes defeat their enemy (who’s too strong to fight directly) by mind-swapping him into a weaker body. You get the drift.
In such a scenario it might actually be both logically and ontologically possible for God to die, as long as it’s a contingent nature that the person of God adopted which handles the mechanics of death.. though it seems something of a stretch, and it’s not obvious what the motivation would be.
Long ago, on an unremarkable Friday in a second-rate capital in a rural backwater of the Empire, the regional administrator signed off on a death warrant because the local aristocracy of his domain had threatened to take their complaints over his head, and he was still in political trouble from the last time they’d done so.
And thus the machinery of state brought about in an afternoon what looks like the most impossible event, the most incoherent truth, in all history:
God is dead.
unfolding grace 2 April 2007
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Today is the second anniversary of the death of Karol Wojtyła, Pope John Paul the Second. Or, as some would say, John Paul the Great. Time will tell: the Church can afford to think in terms of centuries.
On this anniversary, though, I can’t help but link to my favourite JPII story, as reported by Roger Cohen, which reminds us all that the child is father to the man.
During the summer of 1942, two women in Krakow, Poland, were denounced as Jews, taken to the city’s prison, held there for a few months and then sent to the Belzec extermination camp, where, in October, they were killed in primitive Nazi gas chambers by carbon monoxide from diesel engines.
Their names were Frimeta Gelband and Salomea Zierer; they were sisters. As it happens, Frimeta was my wife’s grandmother. Salomea, known as “Salla,” had two daughters, one of whom survived the war and one of whom did not.
The elder of these daughters was Edith Zierer. In January 1945, at 13, she emerged from a Nazi labor camp in Czestochowa, Poland, a waif on the verge of death. Separated from her family, unaware that her mother had been killed by the Germans, she could scarcely walk.
But walk she did, to a train station, where she climbed onto a coal wagon. The train moved slowly, the wind cut through her. When the cold became too much to bear, she got off the train at a village called Jendzejuw. In a corner of the station, she sat. Nobody looked at her, a girl in the striped and numbered uniform of a prisoner, late in a terrible war. Unable to move, Edith waited.
Death was approaching, but a young man approached first, “very good looking,” as she recalled, and vigorous. He wore a long robe and appeared to the girl to be a priest. “Why are you here?” he asked. “What are you doing?”
Edith said she was trying to get to Krakow to find her parents.
The man disappeared. He came back with a cup of tea. Edith drank. He said he could help her get to Krakow. Again, the mysterious benefactor went away, returning with bread and cheese.
They talked about the advancing Soviet army. Edith said she believed her parents and younger sister, Judith, were alive.
“Try to stand,” the man said. Edith tried – and failed. The man carried her to another village, where he put her in the cattle car of a train bound for Krakow. Another family was there. The man got in beside Edith, covered her with his cloak, and set about making a small fire.
His name, he told Edith, was Karol Wojtyla..
You’ll have to follow the link for the rest of the story, but I should quote one more part:
In his early, and very personal, observation and absorption of this suffering lie the roots of the late pope’s core belief: the inalienable value and sanctity of each human life.
This belief carried Pope John Paul II to convictions that some found old-fashioned or rigid. But in an indulgent age of moral pliancy, why seek to be indulged by the pope, of all people? He offered his truth with the same simplicity and directness he showed in proffering tea and bread and shelter from cold to an abandoned Jewish girl in 1945, when nobody was watching.
When nobody was watching.
Rest in peace, Father.
dust to dust 21 February 2007
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Today is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent, and a time when you make a special effort to do some interior scrubbing. It’s also a tradition to give things up — and as Fr Jones explained on Sunday, a sacrifice which doesn’t cost you anything isn’t worth making. (I don’t think the suggestion to abandon watching Coronation Street and Eastenders really applies to me.)
I quite like the day’s rite, when the ashes are imposed and the ancient words are spoken to remind us of our mortality: Remember, man, that thou art dust, and unto dust shalt thou return.
I always wonder whether I should wash the ashes off, with Christ’s famous warning in mind:
Beware of practicing your righteousness before men to be noticed by them; otherwise you have no reward with your Father who is in heaven.
[...]
Whenever you fast, do not put on a gloomy face as the hypocrites do, for they neglect their appearance so that they will be noticed by men when they are fasting. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face so that your fasting will not be noticed by men, but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.
On the other hand, the wearing of the ashes and the carrying of palm crosses on Palm Sunday serve as quiet, wordless witnesses to the Faith. I used to have students ask about the ashes every year. (For some reason I always used to get assigned Wednesday tutorials.)
I finally settled on a way of handling the problem. As GKC noted:
Becket wore a hair shirt under his gold and crimson, and there is much to be said for the combination; for Becket got the benefit of the hair shirt while the people in the street got the benefit of the crimson and gold. It is at least better than the manner of the modern millionaire, who has the black and drab outwardly for others, and the gold next to his heart.
In this spirit, I think it works well to have a public sacrifice related to your public life, which your friends can watch and call you on, and a private sacrifice which you don’t talk about, and no one will know but you and God.
One year I gave up meat, which was rough.. my diet is pretty meat-heavy, and several times I found myself having to explain that no, I wasn’t a vegetarian, which I found profoundly embarrassing.
This year I’ve decided to give up all food and drink which isn’t necessary, and simple. No more midafternoon snacks; no carbonated beverages, even with meals; no twice-a-day coffee; and definitely no beer. Including the beer which the department pays for on Friday lunch with the visiting speaker. For the next forty days and change, it’s bread and water (metaphorically) for me, eating only because of hunger and drinking only because of thirst.
We’ll see how it goes.
this year in Jerusalem 5 February 2007
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And the Colts win, largely because their season-awful D shook off giving up a return for touchdown on the first play of the game and forced a half-dozen turnovers.. and Manning adjusted to the rain game better than I thought he would.
This is the first time since the Jays won back-to-back in the early 90s that my team’s won the Big Game. I’d forgotten what it felt like..
I’m especially glad for Tony Dungy, one of the classiest men in professional sports. The Lombardi trophy is the better for him having held it once again. (Backup safety long ago, which I’d completely forgotten until it was mentioned in the pregame runup.)
There’s also the neat fact that both Dungy and his friend Bears coach Lovie Smith are serious Christians, so it was X-man vs. X-man in the arena, with no lions in sight. The Fellowship of Christian Athletes has a bunch of links, including to an excellent ESPN article describing the challenges Dungy has faced including the recent death of his son.
what men live by 23 December 2006
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Christmas is a time of celebration; and therefore also a time to weep.
To weep unashamed, in relief and joy, for what we have been given, for the long night ended, for Him who rests in the bed of straw. And to remember in our cold winter what fire gives us true warmth, the fire which burns but is never consumed.
In the year of Our Lord 1881, Count Leo Tolstoy wrote a story to break the heart, and which — God willing — I will let do so to mine every Christmas season until my death.
To understand why, read: and learn anew What Men Live By.
Bayou dreams 17 December 2006
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I don’t have an alarm clock.
And unfortunately the laptop I’ve been using is on its last legs — I have to use duct tape to pull the power cable at an odd angle to prevent it from instantly turning off — so I can’t use it as an alarm either.
These details are offered to explain why for the last few weeks I’ve missed morning Mass on Sundays and instead have been going to Westminster Cathedral’s evening seven o’clock service. I used to tease a friend of mine who went to the evening service at St Mary’s back in Kingston that she was a heretic, and that only Sunday morning services counted..
<Homer> Mmmm.. crow.. </Homer>
The OT reading was a good one, from Zephaniah:
Sing, O Daughter of Zion;
shout aloud, O Israel!
Be glad and rejoice with all your heart,
O Daughter of Jerusalem!The LORD has taken away your punishment,
he has turned back your enemy.
The LORD, the King of Israel, is with you;
never again will you fear any harm.On that day they will say to Jerusalem,
“Do not fear, O Zion;
do not let your hands hang limp.The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.”“The sorrows for the appointed feasts
I will remove from you;
they are a burden and a reproach to you.At that time I will deal
with all who oppressed you;
I will rescue the lame
and gather those who have been scattered.
I will give them praise and honor
in every land where they were put to shame.At that time I will gather you;
at that time I will bring you home.
I will give you honor and praise
among all the peoples of the earth
when I restore your fortunes
before your very eyes,”says the LORD.
I like Advent a lot. I think it’s my favourite liturgical season. It’s a time of joyful expectation, leading up to a glimpse of barely-understood grace made present, and in that sense has a lot in common with how I think Christians should live today.
Of course, some evenings it’s easier to stay focused in prayer than others. For some reason, the following Paul Simon lyric kept running through my head tonight:
Along come a young girl
She’s pretty as a prayerbook
Sweet as an apple on Christmas dayI said good gracious, can this be my luck?
If that’s my prayerbook
Lord, let us pray
which is, he said, crossing his fingers behind his back fervently, almost seasonal..
dreidel dreidel dreidel 13 December 2006
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Michael Medved, in an insightful article (hat-tip Kathy Shaidle), explains why Hanukkah isn’t a celebration of tolerance but of faithfulness to God, and the principle that there are some things you can’t compromise on. As he puts it, Hanukkah is in fact “a celebration of the religious right”.
Medved’s is the best taking-back-the-holiday argument I’ve read since Mark Steyn’s brilliant comments on the strained interpretations given to another famous seasonal story by the modern Left:
And frankly the Democrats never do well when they try to square contemporary liberal pieties with religion. For one thing, they recoil from the very word “religion.” Al Gore prefers to say, “Well, in my faith tradition . . .” As a rule, folks with a faith tradition tend not to call it such. At Friday prayers in Mecca, the A-list imams don’t say, “Well, in my faith tradition we believe in killing all the infidels.”
Second, prominent Democrats seem to have great difficulty getting even the well-known bits right. Christmas, according to Hillary Rodham Clinton in 1999, is when those in that particular faith tradition celebrate “the birth of a homeless child.” Or, as Al Gore put it in 1997, “Two thousand years ago, a homeless woman gave birth to a homeless child.” For Pete’s sake, they weren’t homeless — they couldn’t get a hotel room. They had to sleep in the stable only because Dad had to schlep halfway across the country to pay his taxes in the town of his birth, which sounds like the kind of cockamamie bureaucratic nightmare only a blue state could cook up. Except that in Massachusetts, it’s no doubt illegal to rent out your stable without applying for a Livestock Shelter Change of Use Permit plus a Temporary Maternity Ward for Non-Insured Transients License, so Mary would have been giving birth under a bridge on I-95.
Heh.
grad F = J 13 December 2006
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Everyone has heroes. Sometimes you’re fortunate enough to have heroes in your own line of work.
I’ve always been fond of Kepler, both scientifically and personally as a man of great integrity and peace. (In many ways he’s the anti-Tycho Brahe.) It’s not every researcher who has to take time off to defend his mother against charges of witchcraft, and whenever I start grumbling about my trivial challenges I should remember his..
In the forward to my master’s thesis, I quoted my favourite prayer of Kepler’s:
If I have been allured into brashness by the wonderful beauty of
Thy works, or if I have loved my own glory among men,
while advancing in work destined for Thy glory,
gently and mercifully pardon me:and finally,
deign graciously to cause that these demonstrations
may lead to Thy glory, and to the salvation of souls,
and nowhere be an obstacle to that.Amen.
Johannes Kepler
Harmonice Mundi V:IX
Since I was quoting one of the greatest men ever to work in the field, and quoting one of the most important works ever written in planetary dynamics, I didn’t think anyone would object. For the PhD I decided to cut out the middleman and go directly to Scripture, quoting the famous passage where God replies to Job:
Who is this that darkeneth counsel
by words without knowledge?
Gird up now thy loins like a man;
for I will demand of thee, and answer thou me.
Where wast thou when I laid the foundations of the earth?
Declare, if thou hast understanding.
Who hath laid the measures thereof, if thou knowest?
Or who hath stretched the line upon it?
Whereupon are the foundations thereof fastened?
Or who laid the corner stone thereof;
When the morning stars sang together,
and all the sons of God shouted for joy?Job 38:2-7
The whole chapter’s gorgeous.
Another hero of mine is the great James Clerk Maxwell. He was unquestionably one of the best mathematical physicists in history, and as a Scot was the only physicist whose name was our kitchen wall growing up.. in a list with other great Scots, on a poster replying to some imaginary anti-Scots Englishman with proof that you couldn’t avoid Scottish inventions. Diaspora Scots: more Scots than the Scots!
Peter Woit linked to a very interesting article on Maxwell which describes not only his accomplishments in electromagnetic theory but his achievements in countless other fields. (I didn’t know he took the first colour photograph!) One thing that the article doesn’t mention, but which also endears me to him, is that Maxwell was also a scientist of deep faith, with views on the interrelationship of faith and study I find myself sympathetic to. He grew up half-Anglican and half-Presbyterian (like me!) and then started hanging out with more evangelical types in college. (Hmm, also like me.) Note that the faith of Kepler and Maxwell was a confessional one, by which I mean that it wasn’t the generic poetic deism to which several more recent scientists (e.g. Einstein) subscribed, or a wacky mix of speculations and alchemy and half-baked heresy (e.g. Newton, the last sorcerer), but something far more orthodox.
I’ll let Maxwell have the last word, in a prayer very reminiscent of Kepler’s:
Almighty God, Who hast created man in Thine own image, and made him a living soul that he might seek after Thee, and have dominion over Thy creatures, teach us to study the works of Thy hands, that we may subdue the earth to our use, and strengthen the reason for Thy service; so to receive Thy blessed Word, that we may believe on Him Whom Thou hast sent, to give us the knowledge of salvation and the remission of our sins. All of which we ask in the name of the same Jesus Christ, our Lord.
(There. Now if that post’s not Binkybait I dunno what is..)
speaking now (forget the peace) 8 December 2006
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After first hearing about this story (hat-tip John Podhoretz), I assumed it was one of those goofy rumours that pops up every now and again, especially because he didn’t include a link. But according to Variety, it seems to be real: “Universal Pictures and Imagine Entertainment have made a deal for “Prodigal Son,” a romantic comedy that Gigi Levangie Grazer will write with Mimi James. Brian Grazer will produce. Story revolves around a workaholic single woman who is set up on a date by her mother. Her date, a handsome, kind and caring carpenter who works at Ikea, turns out to be Jesus Christ, who’s returned for Armageddon and settled in contemporary Los Angeles.” [Emphasis mine.]
The article goes on to note that “turning [Christ] into a character in a contemporary romantic comedy is new ground for a studio film.” One hopes so..
Anyhow, I wrote a long post on nuptial imagery in Christianity — Jesus is already engaged, we’re all invited to the wedding, and we sample the food and drink they’re planning to serve at the banquet at least once a week — and the ways in which the idea of a one-sided romantic attraction to Christ is and isn’t blasphemous. I explained why I expected the film to be objectively blasphemous, but wasn’t very worked up about it, and thought that it would be possible to write something along those lines which wasn’t.
Then I considered Podhoretz’ followup post:
How much you want to bet that Brian Grazer’s next film won’t be a romantic comedy about a workaholic woman who falls for a cab driver who turns out to be Muhammad?
I discussed the Jyllands-Posten cartoon controversy; the time when one of the astrograds at Queen’s explained how terrible it was that the cartoonists were offending Muslims — and in the middle of his rant used Christ’s name as a curse, which almost made me burst out laughing at the utter lack of self-awareness; the murder of Theo van Gogh; the oddity of the fact that you have to turn to Trey Parker and Matt Stone, who live and breathe blasphemy of every sort, to get some sanity (“it really is open season on Jesus”); and yet why the response should be peaceful, not violent.
Finally I quoted a great prayer.
When I was editing the post, I realized that although I agreed with every word, it was long and dry and awkwardly written, and the only part of it worth keeping was the prayer, which explained the appropriate response better than anything I could ever come up with.
So I killed the post and replaced it with the above summary.
From Nikolai of Ochrid, with thanks to net.friend Rebecca:
Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
Enemies have driven me into Thy embrace more than friends have. Friends have bound me to earth, enemies have loosed me from earth and have demolished all my aspirations in the world. Enemies have made me a stranger in worldly realms and an extraneous inhabitant of the world. Just as a hunted animal finds safer shelter than an unhunted animal does, so have I, persecuted by enemies, found the safest sanctuary, having ensconced myself beneath Thy tabernacle, where neither friends nor enemies can slay my soul.
Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
They, rather than I, have confessed my sins before the world.
They have punished me, whenever I have hesitated to punish myself.
They have tormented me, whenever I have tried to flee torments.
They have scolded me, whenever I have flattered myself.
They have spat upon me, whenever I have filled myself with arrogance.Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
Whenever I have made myself wise, they have called me foolish.
Whenever I have made myself mighty, they have mocked me as though I were a dwarf.
Whenever I have wanted to lead people, they have shoved me into the background.
Whenever I have rushed to enrich myself, they have prevented me with an iron hand.
Whenever I thought that I would sleep peacefully, they have wakened me from sleep.
Whenever I have tried to build a home for a long and tranquil life, they have demolished it and driven me out.Truly, enemies have cut me loose from the world and have stretched out my hands to the hem of Thy garment.
Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
Bless them and multiply them; multiply them and make them even more bitterly against me:
so that my fleeing to Thee may have no return;
so that all hope in men may be scattered like cobwebs;
so that absolute serenity may begin to reign in my soul;
so that my heart may become the grave of my two evil twins: arrogance and anger;
so that I might amass all my treasure in heaven;
ah, so that I may for once be freed from self-deception, which has entangled me in the dreadful web of illusory life.Enemies have taught me to know what hardly anyone knows, that a person has no enemies in the world except himself. One hates his enemies only when he fails to realize that they are not enemies, but cruel friends. It is truly difficult for me to say who has done me more good and who has done me more evil in the world: friends or enemies.
Therefore bless, O Lord, both my friends and my enemies.
A slave curses enemies, for he does not understand. But a son blesses them, for he understands. For a son knows that his enemies cannot touch his life. Therefore he freely steps among them and prays to God for them.
Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
Amen.
half-life 2 December 2006
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Warning: overintrospective thoughts, of no interest to anyone but close friends and those in like circumstances. Save yourself the time and go read something else.
So yesterday I made a minor-but-major change to my about page: I’m no longer a twentysomething.
For various reasons, I’ve spent a lot of time over the past two months looking back over my life to date, and on the whole I’m satisfied. I’ve met many wonderful people, made some very good friends, and read some excellent books.. which has always appealed more to me than going to exotic places or doing amazing things. Just the way I’m built, I guess. And I can’t complain about my work: the life of a grad student fit me very nicely, and I enjoyed my grad school years like nothing before. I’d always wanted to get a doctorate, to test myself against the best; and I did.. and I still get a kick out of seeing “Doctor McNeil” on my bank card. I worked with arguably Canada’s foremost researcher in planetary origins (Martin), and now I’m working with the up-and-coming generation (Richard) and the acknowledged masters (Carl). Careerwise, everything’s rolling along far better than I had any right to expect. I’ve been very blessed, and by grace I’ve even been protected from the consequences of my faults, from the trivial to the terrible.
If I were to find out that I was going to be hit by a bus in a few weeks — not out of the question here in mirrorland! — I couldn’t object on grounds of unfairness.
And yet something feels incomplete. There’s a way in which that’s what you’d expect. We’re finite creatures but made for eternity, and nothing purely earthly can satisfy us: for now we only know in part what’s to come, and we’re all going to be hit with bursts of Sehnsucht. U2 said it best– I still haven’t found what I’m looking for. And that’s part of faith, as all Creation yearns for the redemption to come:
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.
Despite knowing this, it can be awfully frustrating working out how to live in the meantime. I guess what I’m getting at is that I think the first half of my life went pretty well. Now it’s time to figure out what to do with the next half of it.
Especially when you hear some blunt advice for men of my age on a subject I’ve thought about more over the past year than I’d like: “Find out who she is and marry her.” (Advice isn’t usually that direct these days.. and I’m not sure that’s a good thing.)
There have been a few times in my life I’ve seriously considered what it would be like to spend the rest of my life with a particular woman. One week, I had trouble sleeping the first few nights because I was starting to wonder if I was going to ask to speak to her father. I decided not to, and she’s now happily married to a man she’s a much better match with than we ever were..
The times that I passed on opportunities have tended to work out well for everyone involved, so I’m confident I made the right choices. Unfortunately, whenever I tell myself this, I remember an affecting passage in one of my desert-island novels, Perelandra. In this section, the evil Weston suggests to the Green Lady that breaking the Law is good because of all the good things that could come out of it: O felix culpa! Our hero Ransom objects:
Is Maleldil [God] a beast that we can stop His path, or a leaf that we can twist His shape? Whatever you do, He will make good of it. But not the good He had prepared for you if you had obeyed Him. That is lost for ever.
The difference here is that choosing to marry or not to marry a certain woman isn’t a matter of obedience, it’s simply a choice. Still.. d’you remember the old joke about the drowning man waiting for God to rescue him? It’s difficult to resist the feeling that sometimes you’ve waved the helicopter off.
Those of us who don’t marry and have children are in a sense freeloading. We live in a world made possible only because of the sacrifice and love of parents. It seems to me that this gives single men special responsibilities in exchange, and chief among what we have to offer is that we can die. That is, we can translate our parenting duties into those things that need doing but which carry great risk and great sacrifice. Police; firemen; soldiers; undercover CSIS operatives; we can die physically. Or we can die to the world, as a priest or a monk in religious life.
I’m not sure what the future has in store, but this much I do know: a life without sacrifice is a life only half-lived. Self-sacrificial love is at the very core of reality, and its absence means distance from what is truly good and beautiful and holy. I don’t want to look back at sixty and find my life was too much lived for myself and not for others. I’ve realized that’s a very strong temptation for a single and bookish academic, and it can’t be one I surrender to, however that may play out.
Also hopefully at sixty I’ll look back at a few novels that made it past chapter three, but that’s going to require divine intervention..
let them eat turkey 29 November 2006
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Robert Miller has a clearly correct post discussing B-16 and poverty, and concisely explains why my favourite ex-Inquisitor is missing the point when it comes to economic inequality between nations.
Suggested Advent (re?)reading for His Holiness: the collected works of Michael Novak.